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eatmoreproteinSometimes it's really hard to believe that I'm approaching a whole year here in Darrow. I still don't really feel like I've settled in all that well, but I felt like that at home a lot of the time too. I miss hockey in the way that I assume someone might miss a limb that was viciously ripped away from their body, to be dramatic. But hockey was like that for me. It was a part of me, in my blood and in my bones, and sometimes I'm surprised to find that I've lived through losing it.
I might not have if it weren't for Bittle. He's the only thing that's kept me sane and sober throughout the whole ordeal. He's sort of my everything now, taking up the empty space that hockey left behind. He is what I'm passionate about now, what keeps me going through the tough days.
And he's the reason that I put all of this together. I wanted Christmas to be really special, and I know how stressed out he is lately. I want him to relax, and that why I rented out a room at Kagura for the week between Christmas and New Year's. It put a pretty sizable dent in my meager savings account, but it'll be worth it. I'm getting more and more used to not having an endless income. I'm better at budgeting and looking for deals, and I even get sort of excited about clipping coupons. So while the first few months were very hard, it's getting easier and I'm happy that my first sizable purchase will be something for me and Bittle to enjoy together.
I packed a bag for him and arranged for someone to take care of Elvis and the dogs, and talked to Derek and Blue to make sure they wouldn't be needing Bittle for the week. I brought everything up here, including our skates, and texted Bittle to ask him to meet me up here for some Christmas Eve cocoa in hopes of surprising him.
But the biggest surprise in store, it seems, was for me.
After checking in and dropping our luggage off in the room, I decided to take a quick stroll around the lodge while waiting for Bits to join me. There's a cafe up ahead, and I head for it in hopes of a good cup of coffee when suddenly I'm stopped in my tracks. It's like an invisible wall has gone up all around me, and anxiety wells up in my throat. I've never experienced anything like this, and it's terrifying. I don't know what to do.
"Ooh look, a new victim," someone says, and I look up to see two girls leaving the cafe. "And he's a cute one!"
"What's going on?" I ask, feeling my fingers start to tremble where they're pressed against my sides.
"The mistletoe got you, babe," one of the girls says, looking delighted. "But I'd be happy to free you."
She winks and puckers her shiny lips at me, and I feel panic clawing at my insides as I shake my head, not wanting them to come any closer.
"Um, no thanks," I breathe out. "I'll just--- stay here."
I might not have if it weren't for Bittle. He's the only thing that's kept me sane and sober throughout the whole ordeal. He's sort of my everything now, taking up the empty space that hockey left behind. He is what I'm passionate about now, what keeps me going through the tough days.
And he's the reason that I put all of this together. I wanted Christmas to be really special, and I know how stressed out he is lately. I want him to relax, and that why I rented out a room at Kagura for the week between Christmas and New Year's. It put a pretty sizable dent in my meager savings account, but it'll be worth it. I'm getting more and more used to not having an endless income. I'm better at budgeting and looking for deals, and I even get sort of excited about clipping coupons. So while the first few months were very hard, it's getting easier and I'm happy that my first sizable purchase will be something for me and Bittle to enjoy together.
I packed a bag for him and arranged for someone to take care of Elvis and the dogs, and talked to Derek and Blue to make sure they wouldn't be needing Bittle for the week. I brought everything up here, including our skates, and texted Bittle to ask him to meet me up here for some Christmas Eve cocoa in hopes of surprising him.
But the biggest surprise in store, it seems, was for me.
After checking in and dropping our luggage off in the room, I decided to take a quick stroll around the lodge while waiting for Bits to join me. There's a cafe up ahead, and I head for it in hopes of a good cup of coffee when suddenly I'm stopped in my tracks. It's like an invisible wall has gone up all around me, and anxiety wells up in my throat. I've never experienced anything like this, and it's terrifying. I don't know what to do.
"Ooh look, a new victim," someone says, and I look up to see two girls leaving the cafe. "And he's a cute one!"
"What's going on?" I ask, feeling my fingers start to tremble where they're pressed against my sides.
"The mistletoe got you, babe," one of the girls says, looking delighted. "But I'd be happy to free you."
She winks and puckers her shiny lips at me, and I feel panic clawing at my insides as I shake my head, not wanting them to come any closer.
"Um, no thanks," I breathe out. "I'll just--- stay here."
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Date: 2017-01-27 03:56 am (UTC)I get a little distracted watching him pull down the zipper of his jeans, giving him a wide, innocent smile when he catches me.
Biting back a giggle, I unbutton my own jeans and slip them off, along with my underwear, still feeling a little bit of a flush to my cheeks even after all this time. Though I'd like to think it's from anticipation these days. I lean over then, testing the water in the tub and then glance at the little knob and buttons on the side. "Goodness, this tub is bigger than any I've ever seen. Ooh! Do you think there's wine in the mini-fridge? We should drink some while we're soaking."
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Date: 2017-01-30 09:05 pm (UTC)"You're so spoiled," I say fondly, sounding quite happy about it. Bittle deserves to be spoiled. I turn to stride naked into the main part of the room, looking around expectantly. I did order the romance package, after all. There's a bottle of sparkling wine chilling in a bucket of ice, and I grab that along with a plate of chocolate dipped strawberries before heading back into the bathroom. The cold water drips from the bottle and runs down my chest, making me hiss as my skin pebbles up.
"Will this do, sir?" I smirk and set the items on the tiled edge of the window and climb into the tub, leaning forward to sling my arms around Bittle's hips and pull him down with a splash. He lands in my lap and I murmur happily as I press my lips to the side of his neck, gesturing distractedly to the basket of sweet smelling toiletries. "D'you want bubbles, mon chou?"
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Date: 2017-01-31 01:40 am (UTC)"I can actually use my legs, you know!" I laugh, watching as some of the water from the tub goes splashing onto the tiled floor.
Behind me, Jack shifts, getting comfortable and I settle between his spread thighs, more than happy to lean against the broad expanse of his chest as the water continues to fill up the tub little by little. With a happy sigh, I lean back against him, my head pillowed on his shoulder as I drop my hands under the rising water, resting them over his knees.
"Mmm, not this time," I decide, tipping my head back enough to see him. I can feel my cheeks going warm again, but only in the best way. "Kinda like the idea of getting to see you if you we get into some hanky-panky. I'll take a strawberry though if you can reach 'em."
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Date: 2017-01-31 09:37 pm (UTC)"You could, but what's relaxing about that?" I tease, bringing my knees up to cradle his body between my thighs as his hands, such fast talented hands, curl around my knees. My arms go around his shoulders and we settle like that in the hot water, and I am utterly content.
My eyes slip shut but crack open again when I feel his soft hair against my neck, and they open sleeping to meet his gaze. A corner of my mouth quirks up in amusement and I slide my hand up his chest, thumbing at the tight bud of his nipple. "Hanky panky, huh? This is supposed to be a relaxing bath."
I reach up to grab a strawberry with my draw hand and bring it around to press the tip of it to his mouth, smearing melting chocolate against his bottom lip. "Open up."
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Date: 2017-02-01 01:34 am (UTC)He bumps my bottom lip with a strawberry, smearing some of the chocolate and I laugh as I open my mouth to try to take it between my teeth.
"Than' 'oo," I tell him before biting into it then letting out a small sound at how good it tastes. "Mmm, goodness. I should try to make a chocolate-dipped strawberry pie sometime. I bet that would be delicious."
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Date: 2017-02-09 12:01 am (UTC)"If you're still thinking about pie, I must be doing something wrong," I say with a laugh, biting into the strawberry myself and setting the stem onto the tray. Steam rises up around us, clinging to the icy window and beading up. Sinking a little deeper into the water, I pull him back more tightly against him and lean in to press kisses to the back of his neck, dragging my tongue across the soft spot behind his ear. "Let me pretend that you love me more than pie just for today, eh?"
I give him a little squeeze to let him know that I'm joking, sucking lightly at his ear lobe as my hand glides across his stomach under the water.
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Date: 2017-02-09 05:39 am (UTC)There's not much relaxation to be had when he's busy sucking at the my ear lobe, however. Heat rolls down my spine and I let out a breath kind of moan as I drop my hands to his thighs, squeezing as I manage a smile. "Happy to see if you can distract me though. This is a good start."
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Date: 2017-02-16 09:37 am (UTC)My fingers slide up until I can lightly cup his balls, pressing my thumb up behind them in a tease. I hook my chin over his shoulder so I can watch his cock harden, humming in approval and sucking a mark into the top of his shoulder. "How am I doing?"
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Date: 2017-02-16 04:35 pm (UTC)Which is about when I feel his hand creeping higher up my thigh under the water, those big fingers of his curling around me as he presses a thumb to that little sensitive strip of skin behind my balls. I full-on shudder then, hips arching as he presses his lips to my shoulder.
"Oh," I breathe, letting my eyes slip shut for a moment as all the blood in my body rushes south. "Oh, goodness, that's... that's even better."
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Date: 2017-02-21 09:00 pm (UTC)"Good," I breathe out, wrapping my fingers around his hard length and slowly working my first up and down. It's still a marvel just how easy sex with Bits can be. In the past, it's always been awkward and complicated but with him it just feels right. It's incredible and mindblowing and somehow never awkward. We just work together in so many ways, on and off the ice.
He lets out a whine that I feel low in my belly, muscles clenching as I hold him tighter, stroke a little faster. I have so many plans for us this week and this is just the warm up, a way for him to relax. There will be time for finesse later, but right now I just want him to come. "You're incredible, Bits."